Sundays aren't my favorite.because of all the down time and the 2-4 p.m. what-are-we-gonna-do-now moments.
because those moments always leave me way too wrapped up in my thoughts.
normally a good run shakes me right out of overthinking things, but on sundays my jogging shoes get a break too.
a little self-evalution isn't bad and it seems natural after perspective-refining conversations and lessons at church. but my poor brain just doesn't shut down sometimes. and all to often it gets the best of me.
thankfully i'm married to the most patient, consistent, supportive man i've ever met, and he listens to me ramble. he helps me make sense of what's realistic and what's not, points out the good things i'm thinking and the things that i could probably do without. and my dad's the same way. they really help me filter.
after a good long talk with either of them, i'm usually left with the truth--the lesson that i should keep, the thought that i can build on--and all the anxiety and guilt are washed away. thank heaven for people like that.
and what i came away with yesterday was the realization that i can (and so i should) answer this one tiny question: what gets the best of me?
doesn't it seem like there are so many good, better, great causes? tons of great things to be involved in, to try, to join, to help, to re-create, to change, to start? and there are so many people to be with, to visit, call, help, listen to, talk to, reconnect with, nurture and love?
usually in my effort to do a little of everything, no one person or thing gets my best, leaving me with scraps of unfinished ventures and scattered intentions. which makes me crazy anxious and completely down on myself - missing out on all those good things because i'm at the world's most pathetic pity party.
so i've decided to follow some good advice. to live more in the moment. to focus more on what's happening now, to give the best of me wholly to the things going on and the people right in front of me now. and especially not to let any other moment steal the best of me from this moment. then look back at the past knowing i was fully in each moment, each venture, with each person. that i soaked it all in gave it my best and that i'll do the same in the future.
that i gave the best of me.
3 comments:
OK... So I needed to hear every word of that!! I love you and I think of you Lots... I hope all is well!
Ok sheri dew Schow i didn't know you were related to me. Thanks candis that was good advice. and remember we all feel the same way all of the time. I think you should write a book about being and ordinary mom that can put ordinary thoughts into advice. keep up the good spirit!! love ya!
Wow Candis you are such a neat person.. You have always inspired me and been someone that I look up to. I will never forget you in Sunday school class - I always loved hearing your perspective when you would make comments and I'm glad to see you are still the same :) keep it up girl!
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